裘德·洛
鲁妮·玛拉
凯瑟琳·泽塔-琼斯
及 查宁·塔图姆
副作用
导演：斯蒂文·索德伯格
三个月前
前门 Front door!
我不能放它进去，除非让我看看 I can't let it in unless I see it.
我懂，我知道规定，只是问问你能否破个例 I know, I know what the rules are. I'm just asking if you can make an exception.
没有例外，制定规则就是为了这个 There are no exceptions. That's why we have rules.
- 我知道规定是怎样，我只是告诉你… - 我不能… -I know what a rule is. I'm just telling you... -I can't.
你们那里没有X光机吗？ You don't have an X-ray machine back there?
你们没有X光机吗？ You don't have an X-ray machine?
没有，我必须得看见 No. I've got to see it.
我打赌你不会怀念那次驾车的 I bet you're not going to miss that drive.
还有那个氛围 Or the ambiance.
我本来可以走得更远 I would've gone a lot further.
你看，他们给了我一本重新恢复的手册 You know, they gave me a brochure on reintegrating.
- 是吗？ - 是 - Yeah? - Yeah.
一个社工来过 A social worker came by.
他说什么？ What did he say?
慢慢来 Go slow.
我们可以慢慢来 We can go slow.
- 嘿 - 嘿 Hey. Hey.
我是想来提醒你 我明天就不来了 I just wanted to remind you that I won't be coming in tomorrow.
噢，对啊，是那个大日子 That's right. It's the big day!
- 对 - 你一定很激动吧 - Yes. - You must be thrilled...
对 Yeah.
又兴奋又紧张 ...and excited and nervous and...
我想感谢你，为这一切 And I wanted to thank you, just for everything.
你一直那么体谅人 You've been so understanding.
哦，我肯定事情比新闻里说的要复杂，所以… Oh, I'm sure there's more to it than what's on the news, so...
我知道，不过对于很多人，你一说“内部交易”… I know, but to a lot of people you say "insider trading,"
也就跟说“谋杀”差不多，别人就当你不存在了 and it may as well be murder. You just stop existing.
所以，谢谢你，为了这一切 So, thank you for everything.
我还拿不准该穿什么 I wasn't sure what I should wear.
我试过去找些新衣服买 I tried to find something new to buy,
可是我找不到好看的 but I couldn't find anything that looked good.
亲，你样子很美 Honey, you look beautiful.
我只能想象你在他眼里会是什么样子 And I can only imagine how you're gonna look to him.
噢，妈妈 Oh! Oh, Mama.
噢 Oh.
来吧，我们趁他们改主意前离开这里 Come on. Let's get out of here before they change their mind.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
宝，你还记得我在里面遇见的那个对冲基金经理吗？ Babe, you remember that hedge fund manager I met inside?
马歇尔·赫尔曼 Marshall Hellman?
- 那个斯坦福的？ - 对 -The Stanford guy? -Yeah.
超级聪明，他因为税务的事进去的，不过很快就要出来了 Super smart. He was in for some tax thing, but he'll be out soon.
他在迪拜有钱，还有很多关系 He's got money in Dubai and a lot of connections.
我可以把我们带回到过去，艾 I can get us back to where we were, Em.
我保证，我可以做得到 I promise. I can make that happen.
好的，亲 Okay, baby.
谢谢你 Thank you.
我不懂你在说什么，放松好了 I don't understand what you're saying! Just relax!
哈喽 Hello.
我是班克斯医生 I'm Dr. Banks.
- 这人有问题，懂吗？听着，放松 - 警官 -This guy's on something, okay? Listen, just relax! -Officer.
- 警官 - 这人有问题 -Officer. -This guy's on something.
他过来打我 He came swinging at me.
退后，让我跟他说话 Stand back and let me talk to him.
他刚才想拦一辆出租车 He was trying to hold up a taxi.
你懂吗？他攻击我 You understand? He came at me!
奥古斯汀？奥古斯汀 Augustin? Augustin.
他挺好 He's fine.
怎么？什么事？怎么了？ What? What was it? What's going on?
他看见他死去的父亲在开那辆出租车 He saw his dead father driving the taxi.
什么？ What?
他看见他父亲的鬼魂，他生前是出租司机 He saw the ghost of his father. He was a cabbie.
所以我说对了，他疯了 So I was right. He's nuts.
不，这是哀痛 No. It's grief.
只是哀痛在他的脑海中画图 Just grief painting pictures in his brain.
他看见鬼魂 He sees ghosts.
他是海地人 He's Haitian.
对于海地人来说 在亲人死后不久见到他们并非不寻常 It's not unusual for Haitians to see their loved ones shortly after they die.
对于你我来说很怪异，但对他完全正常 Weird for me and you, but it's perfectly normal for him.
好了，还有什么？ Right, what do you have next?
8号床车祸，头部次级外伤，需要咨询 MVA in bed eight, with minor head trauma, in need of a consult.
今天两班倒？ Double shift today?
最好是靠化学维生 Better living through chemistry.
泰勒小姐 Miss Taylor.
- 怎么？ - 我是班克斯医生 Yeah? I'm Dr. Banks.
哦，他们说我可能有脑震荡 Oh, they said I might have a concussion,
但我不必为此留在这里，对吧？ but I don't have to stay here for that, right?
呃，我们得等CT扫描结果才能知道 Uh, we have to wait for the CT scan results to know that.
我有几个问题要问你 I have a couple of questions for you.
你的头怎么样？ How's your head?
头疼 It hurts.
你撞墙之前头怎么样？ How was it before you hit the wall?
你什么意思？ What do you mean?
你最近情形怎样？ How have things been going with you?
一般说说 Generally speaking.
你来干什么？ Why are you here?
我是精神科医生，泰勒小姐 I'm a psychiatrist, Miss Taylor.
通常 Normally,
当人开车撞到东西 when people hit things with their car,
路面上会有刹车痕迹 there are skid marks on the pavement.
一堵砖墙是一个很好的刹车理由 A brick Wall's a pretty good reason to use the brakes,
打方向盘 turn the wheel.
你没有那么做，你直接撞上去 You didn't do that. You went straight in.
这里写着，那个侍者告诉警方… It says here the attendant told the police
你上车之前相当烦乱 you were pretty upset before you got in the car.
保险公司打算检查刹车 Now, the insurance company are gonna check the brakes,
但我宁愿问问你 but I prefer to just ask you.
今早你是不是试图伤害自己？ Did you try to hurt yourself this morning?
你还想尝试伤害自己吗？ Do you still want to try and hurt yourself?
艾米莉 Emily.
在这里待上几天你觉得如何？ How do you feel about staying here for a few days?
- 这里？ - 嗯 -Here? -Mmm.
不，我不能留在这里 No, I can't stay here.
马丁刚回家，我得在那里陪他 Martin just got home and I have to be there for him.
他是你的丈夫吗，马丁？ Is that your husband, Martin?
是的，而且他刚出狱 Yes, and he just got out of prison.
我必须回去，我有一份工作，我得去工作 I have to be there, and I have a job. I have to go into work.
他还没有挣什么钱 He doesn't make any money yet.
你结婚了吗？ Are you married?
是的 Yes.
好，如果你走出监狱… Okay, what if you got out of jail
或者你出去很久刚回家 or you were away for a long time and you come home
而你的妻子却在精神病院，会怎样？ and your wife is in the mental hospital?
我们等了四年，我不能留在这里 We waited for four years. I can't stay here.
我认为今早你可能试图伤害自己，而且… I think you may have tried to hurt yourself this morning, and...
那是个错误，我有一分钟失控了 It was a mistake. I lost it for a minute.
我保证，那不会再发生了 I promise, that's not going to happen again.
- 你有办公室吗？ - 嗯 -Do you have an office? -Mmm.
那么，我可以来你办公室见你，我是说… Well, I could come see you at your office. I mean...
你要我来多频繁都可以 I could come as often as you want.
我可以一周来两到三次 I could come two or three times a week.
我以前治疗过一次 I was in therapy once before,
我记得这种安排的确对无望感有帮助 and I remember that structure really helps with hopelessness.
我保证，我只是真的想回家 I promise. I just really want to go home.
好吧，那我们就把她交给你们了 Okay. So we'll release her to you,
但是这周我想在我办公室见她，是我们说好的 um, but I want to see her in my office this week. That's the deal we made.
我只是完全不知道这事还在继续 I just had no idea this was still going on.
哦，亲爱的，我想她一定是一直做出勇敢的样子 Oh, honey, I think she must have been putting on a brave face.
她害怕告诉你，她害怕告诉我 She was afraid to tell you. She was afraid to tell me.
我想要她从这个开始，它叫做SSRI I want to start her on this. It's called an SSRI.
它作用于大脑的五羟色胺神经递质 It affects the neurotransmitter in the brain called serotonin.
这东西具体是做什么的？ What does that do exactly?
基本上，它帮助阻止大脑告诉你你很难过 Basically, it helps stop the brain from telling you you're sad.
几周之内，她会开始感觉好些 In a few weeks, she should start to feel better.
不，当然，当然 No, of course. Of course.
那是柔和的，完全是的，开始是柔和的 It was soft. Absolutely, it was soft in that first...
但我们会收紧它 But we are going to tighten it up.
当然，那就是我们所做的 Sure, that's what we do.
对，我想在达拉斯组之后重组会很有趣 Yeah. I think it'll be interesting to regroup after the Dallas groups.
艾米莉？ Emily?
你还好吗？ Are you okay?
艾米莉？ Emily?
出什么事了？ What happened?
这个也让我犯恶心 These made me sick, too.
我用西酞普兰比较好 I had better luck with Celexa.
我小时候常画画，不过大多数画人 I used to draw when I was a kid. Mostly people, though.
我班上的老师和孩子 Teachers and kids from my class.
我喜欢的男孩 Boys that I liked.
有时候是猫 Sometimes cats.
我以前常常把他们的脸画得完美 I used to try and get their faces perfect.
那是我来纽约的原因，我想要进入平面设计行业 That's why I came to New York, I wanted to get into graphic design.
我遇见马丁的时候正在上课 I was taking classes when I met Martin.
怎么遇见的？ How did that happen?
我当时在市区的一家酒吧工作，挣学费 I was working at this, uh, bar downtown to help pay for school,
他下班后总是过来 and he kept coming in after work.
而且他只点最复杂的酒水 And he would just order the most complicated drinks.
我完全不知道怎么调制的东西 Things that I had no idea how to make.
有一晚，他爬过吧台 One night, he climbed over the bar
提出教我怎么调制 and offered to teach me how to make them.
他最后待到我们打烊，后来他约我出去 And he ended up staying until we closed. Then he asked me out.
你就去了 And you went.
我不知道他是谁是做什么的，他只是… I didn't know who he was or what he did. He was just...
他只是一个穿套装的人 He was just this guy in a suit.
我调酒的时候就看着我 And watched me while I made drinks,
那样真的让我紧张 and that made me really nervous.
然后他盯着我看，就像我是一幅画 Then he stared at me like I was a painting.
他有一艘漂亮的帆船，带我出去坐船 He had this beautiful sailboat, and he took me out on it.
教我怎么滑雪 Taught me how to ski.
他让我神魂颠倒 He swept me off my feet.
那年冬天在毛伊岛向我求婚，我们春天就结婚了 Proposed to me in Maui that winter and we were married by spring.
你当时多大？ How old were you?
那是五年前，所以我当时23 That was five years ago, so I was 23.
时间过得真快 Time goes by so fast.
这些症状会消失吗？ Is this ever going to go away?
你说你以前也抑郁过 You said you felt depressed before.
上次你看过医生吗？ Did you see anyone about it last time?
看过，在康涅狄格州格林威治市，维多利亚·希伯特 Yeah. In Greenwich, Connecticut. Victoria Siebert.
他们收走我们的房子以后我不得不停止看她 I had to stop seeing her when they took our house away
我也不得不搬回到城里 and I had to move back to the city.
你介意我就你的病史联系希伯特医生吗？ Do you mind if I contact Dr. Siebert about your history?
不会，当然不 No, of course not.
- 我四年前看的她 - 嗯 -I saw her four years ago. -Mmm.
维多利亚·希伯特 医学博士 ADHD尖端学科
持续了九个月多一点 For a little over nine months.
她不仅仅是被扯掉了内心的铺垫 She didn't just have the rug pulled from under her,
她的铺垫、房子、丈夫 she had the rug, the home, the husband.
她的整个人生，都没了 Her entire life, gone.
还有她的健康保险，她搬进城里去找工作 Even her health insurance. She moved into the city to find work
我就再也没听到她的消息了 and I never heard from her again.
我很高兴她这回在看男医生，我认为这有帮助 I'm glad she's seeing a man this time. I think that will help.
为什么呢？ Why is that?
从未感觉被她父亲照看过 Never felt seen by her father.
然后她丈夫进了监狱，她再次被抛弃了 Then her husband ends up in jail and she's abandoned again.
我会高兴看到她有一种不一样的经历 I'd be happy to see her have a different kind of experience.
她说你给她试过药物 She says you tried her on medication.
哦，有，安非他酮，百忧解，郁复伸 Oh, yes. Wellbutrin. Prozac. Effexor.
- 真的很难熬 - 嗯 -Really struggled. -Mmm.
我记得她有睡眠和反胃的问题，寒颤… I remember she had problems with sleep and nausea. Chills...
我正给她用左洛复，看看她能否耐受 I'm putting her on Zoloft, see if she can tolerate that.
哦，对，也许她是新进药物的候选人 Oh. Well, maybe she's a candidate for one of these newer meds.
有时候最新的东西会给他们信心 Sometimes the newest thing gives them confidence.
他们在电视上看到广告，他们相信 They see the ads on TV, they believe.
我有个病人有一些相似的问题 I have a patient with some similar issues.
我给她用Ablixa I put her on Ablixa.
欢迎大家，感谢光临 Welcome, everyone! Thank you for coming.
我们很快开始展会 We'll be starting the presentations soon,
所以请大家进来坐下 so if everyone can come in and take a seat.
你看，我这里可能有些样品，我找找 You know, I may have some samples here. Let me see.
没有，我一定是全给出去了 No. I must have given them all away.
给！拿一支Ablixa的笔吧 Here! Have an Ablixa pen.
当时如果它可用的话 Had it been available back then,
我会在艾米莉流产后给她开这种药 I would have prescribed it for Emily after she miscarried.
- 流产？ - 嗯 -Miscarried? -Hmm.
他进了监狱之后 After he went to jail.
她…呃…没有提过这事 She, uh, hasn't mentioned that.
- 没有吗？ - 没有 -No? -No.
他有没有获释？ Has he been released yet?
- 一周前 - 哦 -A week ago. -Oh!
噢，也许这会帮助事情转机 Well, maybe that will help turn things around.
听着，不要跟卡尔或凯拉提赫尔曼的事情 Look, don't mention anything to Carl or Kayla about Hellman.
（一次一片 左洛复 班克斯医生）
这样事情会简单些 It'll just make things easier.
我仍然认为卡尔就是去找联邦局的人 I still think Carl's the one who went to the Feds.
也许他给我们这几张票… He probably gave us these tickets
是因为他心里别扭 because he feels shitty about everything.
我希望这东西有用 I hope these things work.
嘿 Hey.
瞧，如果你觉得应付不来，我可以自己去 Look, if you don't feel up to this, I can go by myself.
我能理解你不想见那些人 I understand if you don't want to see those people.
好吗？ All right?
可是某个时候我得回去外面做事 But I got to get back out there at some point.
如果我光是自己坐在这里，我只会感觉更糟 If I just sit here by myself, I'm just gonna feel worse.
我至少得试试，班克斯医生会想要我试试 I have to at least try. Dr. Banks would want me to try.
卡尔？ Carl?
马丁，欢迎回来 Martin! Welcome back.
- 你好啊，先生？ - 嗨 -How are you, sir? -Hi!
- 艾米莉，很高兴见到你 - 嗨，很高兴见到你 -Emily, good to see you. -Hi. Good to see you.
凯拉，你记得这位漂亮的女士吧 Kayla, you remember this beautiful lady here.
嗨 Hi.
非常感谢邀请我们 Thank you so much for having us.
哦天，你的衣服真漂亮，我喜欢，美丽动人 Oh, my, your dress is beautiful! I love it. It's gorgeous.
谢谢，我们很高兴你们能来 Thank you. We're so glad you guys could come.
是我们的荣幸，再次感谢 It's our pleasure. Thanks again.
我要去吧台拿杯喝的，有人要什么东西吗？ I'm going to go to the bar and get a drink. Does anyone want anything?
- 哦，不用 - 这样好吗？ - Oh, no. - Is that such a good idea?
是的，没事，我就回来 Yeah, it's fine. I'll be right back.
- 她看起来好极了 - 对 - She looks amazing! - Yeah.
她做得很好 She's doing well.
不过离开是很艰难，回来也是，对大家都是 But going away is hard, and so is coming back, for everyone.
马丁，我只想说我希望… Martin, I just want to say I wish I had done
做得更好来帮把手，真的 a better job of reaching out. I really do.
不，没事的，情况就是这样的，都过去了 No. That's fine. It's the culture. It's over now.
晚上好，夫人，我能给你做什么？ Good evening, ma'am. Can I get you something?
是的，一杯伏特加苏打水，有劳 Yes, a vodka seltzer, please.
给你，慢用 There you go. Enjoy!
谢谢 Thank you.
艾，马丁正在说… Em. So, Martin was just telling...
亲，怎么了？ Honey, what's wrong?
我不行… I can't...
我做不到 I can't do this.
你看，我去年经历了很糟糕的时候 You know, I went through a very bad time last year.
我发现一个肿瘤 I found a lump.
我崩溃了，非常沮丧 I just fell apart. I was so depressed,
然后，我的医生开了一种药叫做郁复伸 and, uh, my doctor prescribed something called Effexor.
真的管用 It really helped.
你能帮我找一下马丁吗？ Can you get Martin for me?
好 Yeah.
嘿 Hey.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我很抱歉，我做不到，对不起 I'm sorry! I can't, I'm sorry.
没关系，没关系 It's okay, it's okay.
过来 Come here.
（抑郁症正在拖累你？今天跟你的医生问问ABLIXA，明天就恢复）
别这么近，夫人 Not so close, ma'am!
谢谢 Thank you.
（毕汉）
哦，有一个能开处方的丈夫的好处 Oh, the advantages of having a husband who can write prescriptions.
这叫什么来着？ What are they called again?
-这是β-受体阻滞药 - 嗯 - It's a beta blocker. -Hmm.
我这么做是不是不好？ Is it bad that I'm doing this?
人人都吃这个 Everyone takes them.
律师，音乐家 Lawyers, musicians.
去面试重大工作的人 People going to interviews for big jobs.
它不会让你变成不一样的人 It doesn't make you anything you're not.
它只是让你更容易做你自己 It just makes it easier for you to be who you are.
是在我跟另外两个人当中选 It's between me and two other people.
一个女的来自美林，一个男的来自花旗，不过… A woman from Merrill and a guy from Citicorp. But...
赫兹利特说我有内部渠道 Hazlitt says I have the inside track.
抱歉，迪 Sorry, D.
我得回电话，是急事 I've got to return this. It's an emergency.
这姑娘真的很挣扎 This girl is really struggling.
班克斯医生，我真的需要跟你谈谈 Dr. Banks, I really need to talk to you.
艾米莉 Emily.
是，我刚收到你的信息 Yeah. I just got your message.
我跟我妻子在一起 I'm with my wife.
我去了你的办公室，但你不在，所以我就来了这里 I went to your office, but you weren't there. So I came here.
我们能不能去谈谈？ Could we just go talk?
如果是急事，我可以收治你 If it's an emergency, I can admit you.
不，我只是… No. I just, um...
我正要上地铁… I was getting on the subway and...
我就像是当时在车里一样 And I was like when I was in the car.
我得去上班，我只需要五分钟 I have to go to work. I just need five minutes.
之后你要去上班？ You're going to go to work after?
- 好吧，五分钟 - 好的 -Okay, five minutes. -Okay.
对不起 I'm sorry.
面试以后给我打电话 Call me after the interview.
艾米莉，我知道这很难 Emily, I know this is hard.
但你感觉到的无望感是一种症状 But the hopelessness you're feeling is a symptom.
我们必须把它留在过去 We have to leave that in the past.
有个心理学家说过 A psychologist once said,
“抑郁症就是无力建构未来” "Depression is an inability to construct a future."
但你有未来，在家里跟马丁一起 But you have a future. At home with Martin.
他正在努力开创新事业 He's trying to start a new business.
跟一个他在监狱认识的男人赫尔曼 With this guy Hellman that he met in jail.
这事你有什么感觉？ How does that make you feel?
我不知道，我是说，他正在努力 I don't know. I mean, he's trying.
他真的在努力让事情变好 He's really trying to make things better
而我完全没有帮助 and I'm just not helping at all.
我是说，我也在努力，我去了… I mean, I'm trying, too. I went...
我去买东西想讨他欢心 I went shopping to try and make things more exciting for him.
你在努力 You are trying.
我不能再吃左洛复了，我不行，觉得眩晕 I can't take the Zoloft anymore. I can't. I'm dizzy.
我睡不着，我没有性爱的动力 I can't sleep. I have no sex drive.
这我理解 I understand that.
跟我上班的一个女人，朱莉娅，她… This woman I work with, Julia, she...
她说她在服另一种新药，的确对她有帮助 She said she's on this other, new medication, and it's really helping her.
我想也许我可以试试 I thought maybe I could try that.
泰勒 Taylor!
你以前服过Ablixa吗？ Have you taken Ablixa before?
没有 No.
一些副作用可能包含… Some of the side effects may include
反胃，肌无力，失眠，食欲改变 nausea, muscle weakness, insomnia, change in appetite,
口干，烦躁 dry mouth, irritation.
你要付现吗？ Do you want to pay cash?
尼克斯比赛的包厢座，科德角的垂钓旅行，真是疯了 There were court seats at Knicks games, fishing trips to Cape Cod. It was crazy.
有一年，华纳-兰伯特带我们去夏威夷 One year, Warner-Lambert took us to Hawaii.
我做了五分钟报告然后玩了36洞高尔夫 I gave a talk for five minutes and played 36 holes.
辉瑞公司要花多少钱才能让他们这整件事情结束？ What did Pfizer have to pay to make their whole thing go away?
两百万？ Two billion?
莉莉付了超过10亿美元解决“再普乐”的问题 Lilly paid over a billion to settle the Zyprexa thing.
我们一定要谈这些吗？你们毁了我的午餐 Do we have to talk about this?You're ruining my lunch.
有一个代表，就当是个无名氏吧 A certain rep, who will remain nameless,
给了我世界职棒大赛的票 gave me tickets to the World Series.
- 给我儿子弄到签名的球 - 嗯 -Got my son an autographed ball! -Hmm.
我要早知道你喜欢棒球就好了 If only I'd known you liked baseball.
这些事情发生时我在哪里？ Where was I for all this?
在某个英国住宿学校里吧，大概 Some British boarding school, probably.
哦，请你们医生午餐并不违反制药公司守则 Well, it's not a violation of the pharma code to buy you doctors lunch
只要我们至少谈上五分钟的生意就行 as long as we talk about business for at least five minutes.
准备好了？说吧 Ready? Go!
我们正要开始新的抗焦虑药Delatrex的试验 We're starting a trial for our new anti-anxiety drug, Delatrex.
我们在找几位医生顾问 We're looking for a couple of docs to consult.
也许会进行大约一年，有兴趣吗？ It's probably going to run for about a year. Any interest?
我不来，我在做一个竞争品，签了保密协议 I'm out. I'm doing something for the competition. Signed an NDA.
为此你应该取消她的菲力牛排 You should cancel her filet for that.
我在教下学期的课，感觉有些工作过度了 I'm teaching next semester and feeling a little overextended.
你怎么样，班克斯医生？太忙？ How about you, Dr. Banks? Too busy?
没有我的同伴们忙，你需要什么？ Not as busy as my partners. What do you need?
接近了，但不对 Getting warmer, but, no.
呃 Uh...
- 三万？ - 啊 -Thirty thousand? -Ah!
五万 Fifty thousand.
- 真的？哇 - 对 -Really? Wow. -Yes.
真的 Really.
那你要做什么？ What do you have to do?
参加一些会议，招募一些患者，跟踪一些数据 Go to a few meetings, recruit some patients, track some data.
所以你会更忙？ So you'll be even busier.
是的 Yes.
不过反过来呢 But the flip side is
就比如说 that if, for instance,
这件衬衫的纽扣 the buttons on this shirt
突然掉了 suddenly fell off,
我就可以买一件新的 I would be able to buy a new one.
哦，我懂了 Oh, I see.
妈？ Mom?
嗯？ Mmm.
在，亲，在这里，在拆箱 Yes, honey! In here, sweetie. Just unpacking.
我刚做了一个噩梦 I was having a bad dream.
- 哦，亲爱的 - 哦 -Oh, love. -Oh!
亲爱的，你很幸运，乔恩在梦这方面很擅长 Honey, you're in luck. Jon is very good with dreams.
- 是的，我很擅长 - 所以，他会帮你 -Yes, I am. -So, he's gonna help you.
回床上去，亲 Back to bed, sweetie.
我睡觉时必须做梦吗？ Do I have to dream when I sleep?
是的，我相当确定我们都做 Yeah, I'm pretty much sure we all do.
来吧，不一定全得是噩梦 Come, on. They don't all have to be bad.
阿尔伯特·爱因斯坦，记得他吧？ Albert Einstein, remember him?
对 Yeah.
他在梦里琢磨出相对论 He figured out relativity in a dream.
还有保罗·麦卡特尼 写了好多完整的歌 And Paul McCartney wrote entire songs.
而我在遇见你妈妈前就梦见过她 And I dreamt of your mom before I even met her.
所以你打算做什么梦呢？ So what are you going to dream about?
不管是谁制造了这种药 会发他妈的大财 Whoever makes this drug is going to be fucking rich.
艾 Em!
艾，深更半夜了，关掉音乐 Em! It's the middle of the night. Turn down the music!
艾？ Em?
我们在等什么客人吗？ Are we expecting someone?
艾，你听见我了吗？ Em, can you hear me?
你在干什么？ What are you doing?
她不能停药吗？ Can't she stop taking drugs?
- 没有替代办法吗？ - 没有 -Isn't there an alternative approach... -No!
天，不行，我终于能睡得着了 God, no. I can finally sleep.
我有了一些精力，我们有了性生活 I have some energy. We had sex.
就好像我们真正在一起了 It was like we were actually together.
也许别的什么办法能有同样的效果 Maybe something else would do the same thing.
绝对的，还有其它的SSRI药物，SNRI药物 Absolutely. There are still other SSRI's, SNRI's.
不 No.
我试过其他所有的药，你不了解，马丁 I've tried everything else. You don't know, Martin.
你从没得过病，你不知道是什么样的 You've never had this. You don't know what it's like.
懂吗？每天下午都像是…… Okay? Every afternoon it's like...
就像是一场有毒的雾障 It's like there's this poisonous fog bank
在我脑海翻腾，而我瘫痪了 rolling in on my mind, and I'm paralyzed.
如果我必须从头开始，我想我应该去看别的医生 If I have to start over, I think I should see a different doctor.
很抱歉你有这种感觉 I'm sorry you feel that way.
我理解你的挫折 I understand your frustration.
我们怎么办？ What do we do?
我们可以做些事情使之奏效 There are things we can do to make this work.
别的药物加到Ablixa上 Other medications we add to the Ablixa,
一种是设计用来对付梦游的 one is designed to deal with sleepwalking
而Ablixa帮助你掌控你的抑郁 while the Ablixa helps you get a handle on your depression.
今天我要去奥蒂斯维尔 I'm going to Otisville today.
他们终于准我去见赫尔曼了 They finally approved me to see Hellman.
他在考虑我们也许在休斯顿开店 He's thinking we might want to set up shop in Houston.
他在那边有很多关系 He's got a lot of connections down there.
我以为我们要搬回格林威治 I thought we were going to move back to Greenwich.
我确信我们在休斯顿也能结识到好人 I'm sure that we can find great people in Houston, too.
我得说清楚，参与这项研究我得到了报酬 I want to be totally clear that I am being paid to participate in this study.
你若不想参与，我完全理解 If you don't want to take part, I totally understand.
除了Delatrex以外，还有其它的药物我可以开给你 There are other meds besides Delatrex I can prescribe.
所以，我的药是免费的？ So, my medication is free.
我不必跟我的医保公司报告？什么也不用做？ I don't have to report it to my insurance company or anything?
在你选择参与此项研究期间内，你的药是免费的 For as long as you choose to be a part of the study, your meds are free.
哦，那太好了 Oh, that's great.
我们今天开始 We'll start today.
艾米莉，我不懂，快四点了 Emily, I don't understand. It's almost 4:00.
出了什么事？ What happened?
我上了地铁，然后忘记下来了 I got on the train, and I just forgot to get off.
马丁正在考虑给我们搬家 Martin is thinking about moving us,
而我就是… and I'm just
真的… really...
回家吧，艾米莉 Go home, Emily.
但你得知道，不能再这样了 But you have to know this can't happen again.
这对我不起作用 It's not working for me.
发生什么了？ What's happening?
他们给了花旗公司的那个人 They gave it to the guy from Citicorp.
哦，我很难过，迪 Oh, I'm sorry, D.
他妈的没希望 It's fucking hopeless.
艾米莉？ Emily?
赫尔曼说你会爱上休斯顿的 Hellman says you are going to love Houston.
你给我弄了什么？ What'd you get me?
艾？ Em?
该死，艾？ God damn it. Em?
这些他妈的药丸 These fucking pills.
艾 Em.
你又睡了？ You sleeping again?
住手 Stop!
啊 Ahh!
艾，打电话找人 Em, call somebody.
救我 Help me.
打电话找人 Call somebody.
救我 Help me.
他有没有打你？ Did he hit you?
他有没有威胁你？ Did he threaten you?
有没有别人在这里？还有谁来吃晚饭？ Was anyone else here? Who else was coming for dinner?
什么？ What?
我在睡觉，我… I was asleep and I...
我醒过来看见他，他没有… I woke up and I saw him. He wasn't...
他没有在动 He wasn't moving.
就这些…我就记得这些 And that's all... That's all I remember.
希伯特医生 Dr. Siebert.
你好，抱歉打扰了，我是乔恩·班克斯医生 Hello, there. I'm sorry to bother you. It's Jon Banks.
是艾米莉的事 It's about Emily.
呃，出了一件意外 Uh, there's been an incident.
没有强行闯入的迹象 No sign of forced entry,
那座建筑的监控摄像里没有别人 nobody else on the building security camera.
刀上的指纹是她的 The prints on the knife are hers.
她的律师在哪里？ Where is her lawyer?
她没有，只是不停说起你 She doesn't have one. Just kept talking about you.
他们俩都没有挣扎的迹象 No sign of struggle on either one of them.
她自己打了911电话 She made the 911 call herself.
我们昨晚有预约，她没有出现 We had an appointment last night that she didn't show up for.
你最后一次看见她是什么时候？ When was the last time you saw her?
四天前 Four days ago.
她当时什么样子？ And what was she like?
知不知道为什么餐桌是按三个人布置的，班克斯医生？ Any idea why the dinner table was set for three, Dr. Banks?
她不记得有关客人的事，是孩子吗？ She doesn't remember anything about a guest. Kids?
不，她没有孩子 No, she didn't have children.
她在服用这些药 She was taking these.
治疗抑郁症的对吗？我见过广告 For depression, right? I've seen the ads.
她跟你说过这一类的事情吗？ She ever talk to you about something like this?
我想跟她谈谈，如果可以的话 I'd like to speak to her, if that's possible.
你可以在里克斯岛监狱跟她谈 You can talk to her at Rikers.
有可能就是，她在睡眠中 It's possible, you see, that she was asleep.
什么？ What?
她会梦游 She walks in her sleep.
那也许就是为什么她不记得任何事 That's maybe why she doesn't remember anything.
那是这种药物的一个副作用 It's a side effect of this medication.
她正在发作中 She's had other episodes.
她也会在睡梦中杀人 She kills people in her sleep, too.
请站起来，转身 Stand up, please. And turn around.
她曾告诉过你什么事 She ever tell you anything to
让你相信她可能有暴力倾向，或者是他有吗？ make you believe she could be violent, or that he was?
你回答之前，或者… And before you answer that, or...
跟我说什么医患保密的事情之前 tell me about some kind of patient-doctor confidentiality thing,
我们来想一想未来吧 let's just think about the future here.
未来？ The future?
哦，这件事往两个方向发展，不是吗？ Well, this goes one of two ways, doesn't it?
你看，要么她是个谋杀犯，要么… See, either she's a murderer or
她是她自己医疗护理的受害者 she's a victim of her medical treatment.
这种情形下，你会是一场大型民事诉讼的目标 In which case, you're the target of a big civil suit.
不管哪种情况，有人会受到惩罚 Either way, someone gets punished.
她或是你 Her or you.
州政府过去很喜欢和你一起工作，班克斯医生 The state's enjoyed working with you in the past, Dr. Banks.
我很愿意看到在这件事情上你跟我们商量 I'd like to see you consulting with us on this one.
这不一样 This is different.
是吗？ Is it?
我永远不要再看见一颗药丸了 I never want to see another pill again.
他们想要我服用别的，另一种… They want me to take something else. Another...
帮助我入睡的药丸 ...pill to help me sleep.
我不懂为什么会发生这种事 I don't understand why this is happening.
有没有任何可能 Is there any way that
是别人做的 somebody else did it,
做得看起来像是我干的？ and made it look like me?
我认为不会 I don't think so.
警方不是这么说的 That's not what the police are saying.
我杀错了人 I killed the wrong person.
我不知道还能做什么，她自己要继续用那种药 I don't know what else I could have done. She wanted to stay on it.
乔恩，你不能到处跟着他们 Jon. You can't follow them around
从他们手里拿走… taking things out of their hands
可能用来伤害他们自己的东西 they might use to hurt themselves.
我们一天见他们一小时，也许一周几次 We see them for an hour a day, maybe a couple of times a week.
我认为他们会起诉她 I think they're going to charge her.
什么罪名？ With what?
你说她没有记忆，没有犯罪意图 You said she has no memory. No criminal intent.
他们不能那么做 They can't do that.
亚利桑那州的一名男子 A man in Arizona.
杀了她妻子，把她扔进泳池 He killed his wife, threw her in the pool,
脱掉他的血衣，把它们放进汽车后备箱 took off his bloody clothes, put them in the trunk of his car.
第二天早上醒来，就不记得了 Woke up the next morning, no memory of it.
一直到他们以罪行起诉他前 都不知道她死了 Didn't even know she was dead until they charged him with the crime.
连邻居们都看见他把尸体扔进泳池 Neighbors even saw him throw the body into the pool.
去年他无罪释放了 He was acquitted last year.
一名妇女在萨尼贝尔岛度假时 用重器击打她的丈夫 A woman bludgeoned her husband while on vacation in Sanibel Island.
他俩当时都睡着了，又一起无罪释放 They were both asleep at the time. Another acquittal.
我必须告诉你，我被州政府找过 I have to tell you, I have been approached by the state
同样是要做他们的顾问 to consult for them as well.
我差不多猜到了 I assumed as much.
我现在处境艰难，希望你理解 I am in a rather difficult spot here. I hope you appreciate that.
我知道，但如果她离开了 I know you are, but if she goes away,
对你来说不是好事 this does not look good for you.
会使整个体制看起来很糟糕 It just makes the whole system look bad.
她说起过想杀了她丈夫吗？ She ever talk about killing her husband?
没有，如果她说过，我会报告的 No. If she had, I would have reported it.
你和那家的人谈过吗？ You spoke to any of the family?
马丁的母亲，就是她雇用我的 Martin's mother. She's the one who hired me.
我们需要你的帮助 We need your help.
你想说说吗？ You want to talk about it?
我的一个病人被捕了 A patient of mine was arrested.
因为什么严重的事情吗？ For something bad?
是的，很严重 Yeah. Pretty bad.
是这个人做的吗？ Did the person do it?
这人有罪吗？ Are they guilty?
就这个案子而言 In this case,
这是两件截然不同的事情 those are two very different things.
我原来还怕你永远也不想再见到我了 I was afraid you would never want to see me again.
我希望你知道，如果我能和马丁交换位置，我会的 I hope you know that if I could trade places with Martin, I would.
如果有人能这样做，我愿意拿出任何东西交换 I would give anything if there were someone who could make that deal.
我只是不理解这是怎么发生的，怎样？ I just don't understand how it happened. How?
我不知道 I don't know.
我不知道，这不像是我，就好像… I don't know. It doesn't fit for me. It's like...
就好像从未发生过 It's like it never happened.
可是我不能理解 But I don't understand it.
你看看电视里的广告，人家在好转 You watch the commercials on TV, people are getting better!
我正在好转，班克斯医生真的帮了我很多 I was getting better. Dr. Banks was really helping me.
可是他刚刚出来 But, he just got out
而现在，他去了 and now he's gone.
我知道 I know.
我能不能给你一件东西？ Can I give you something?
什么？ What?
我想做一份声明 I want to make a statement.
大家需要知道会发生什么 People need to know what can happen.
是为了马丁 For Martin's sake.
“我们去找医生 "We go to doctors
“满怀悲痛 with our sadness
“我们抱有信任，希望他们引导我们走向健康 and our faith in the hope they will guide us toward health."
“可事与愿违，我走上一条通往苦难的道路 "But instead I have gone down a path toward a misery
“那是我永远也想象不到的” I never could have imagined."
“而我带着我所爱的亲人一起 "And I have taken my loved ones with me."
“我唯一的希望是 没有人步我后尘” "My only hope is that no one else follows me to this place."
再说一遍，这份声明来自你的儿媳妇 And again, this is a note from your daughter-in-law.
是的 Yes.
她可能面临谋杀指控 Who may face murder charges.
是的 Yes.
因为药物驱使她做的事情 For what a drug made her do.
今天早上我们邀请了一位萨德勒-贝内拉科斯的代表 We invited a representative from Sadler-Benelux, the makers of Ablixa,
他们是Ablixa的制造商 to come here this morning
来讨论这大不幸的事件，但他们拒绝了 and discuss this very tragic story, but they declined.
不过，我们的彼得·朱伯特医生，曼哈顿的精神病医师 However, our Dr. Peter Joubert, in fact, a Manhattan psychiatrist
专门研究类似Ablixa的抗抑郁药物 who specializes in anti-depression drugs like Ablixa,
在这里与我们讨论 is here to discuss
这些副作用的危险性 the dangers of these side effects.
彼得，如果没有别的，这似乎是一个非常令人不安的灰色地带 Peter, if nothing else, this seems a very troubling gray area.
乔什，是的，所以药食管理局在2004年 Josh, it is. And that is why the FDA, in 2004,
要求抗抑郁药物附带一条黑盒警告… asked that anti-depressants come with a black box warning...
哪一种？西葫芦还是芦笋？ Which one, zucchini or asparagus?
因为它们的使用与日益增长的儿童和青少年自杀风险有联系 ...because their use was associated with an increased risk of suicidality in children and adolescents.
- 西葫芦还是芦笋？ - 我不知道，都要吧 -Zucchini or asparagus? -I don't know. Both.
这一警告扩大到包括20多岁的年轻成人 That warning was expanded to include young adults in their 20s.
彼得，那个医生在这一切当中处于何种位置？ Peter, where's the doctor in all this?
他或她的责任何在？ What's his or her responsibility?
我确信大家有许多问题要问他 I'm sure people have a lot of questions for him.
户外旅行的许可怎么样了？ What about the permission slip for the field trip?
你有吗？ Do you have that?
你记得吗？你兴奋吗？怎么了？ Did you remember? Are you excited? What?
- 他来了！班克斯医生！ - 这儿有名人吗？ There he is! Dr. Banks! Did someone famous...
你看艾米莉·泰勒多久了？ How long have you been seeing Emily Taylor?
看谁？ Seeing who?
你知道你丈夫在诊治艾米莉·泰勒吗？ Did you know that your husband was treating Emily Taylor?
把他带出去 Take him out of here.
发生什么事了？ What is happening?
走那边 Go that way!
这张照片呢？ What about this picture?
你看过今天的邮报吗？ Have you seen the front page of the Post today?
你对此没有评论吗？ You have no comment about any of this?
没有，此刻没有 No, not at the moment.
你对这一切有何评论？ Do you have any comment at all about this?
我无可奉告，她是我的病人，我只能说这么多 I have no comment. She's my patient. That's all I can say.
你们的关系怎样？ What's your relationship?
我看见有些媒体的人在楼下 I saw some press people downstairs.
我想他们有摄像机 I think they had cameras.
是冲你来的吗？ Is that for you?
那边有后楼梯 There's a back stairway,
从那边走你会更容易些 if you'd be more comfortable leaving that way.
我妻子从来不喜欢我来这里 My wife never liked me coming here.
我担心她会看见什么 I'm worried she's going to see something.
这会是一件“什么” It's going to be a "thing."
她是金发那个吗？ Was she the one with the blonde hair?
我觉得我在电梯里见过她，她看上去完全正常 I think I saw her in the elevator. She seemed totally normal.
我真的想更多关注在你身上 I'd really like to focus more on what's going on with you.
她吃的是什么药？不是我吃的吧，是吧？ What was she taking? It's not what I'm taking, is it?
不，你吃的是别的 No. You're taking something else.
你会… 你会告诉我的，对吗？ You'd... You'd tell me, right?
作为办公室医疗行为审查的一部分 As part of the Office's medical conduct review,
我们需要访问你的图表和记录 we'll need to have access to your charts and records.
当前和过去的病人 Current and past patients.
当然，需要什么都行 Absolutely. Whatever you need.
你在英国上的学，在达拉谟 You went to school in the UK, at Durham.
嗯 Mmm.
是什么让你决定来美国这里执业？ What made you decide to practice here in the States?
在我们那里，如果有人去看精神病医师… Where I come from, if anyone goes to see a psychiatrist
…或是服药，大家会设想他们有病 or takes medication, the assumption is they're sick.
在这里，大家会设想他们正在好转 Here, the assumption is they're getting better.
我懂了 I see.
你第一次接触泰勒小姐是在她自杀未遂之后 You first came in contact with Miss Taylor after a suicide attempt.
她开车撞墙 She drove her car into a wall.
你决定不收治她住院？ You decided not to hospitalize her?
她描述说她的自杀企图是一时之错 She described her suicide attempt as a mistake.
还表达了期待好转的愿望 And expressed a desire to get better.
她丈夫也希望她回家 Her husband wanted her home as well.
此外，她没有暴力行为史 In addition, she had no history of violent behavior.
开车撞墙不是暴力？ Driving a car into a wall isn't violent?
我并不认为她对别人构成危险 I didn't think she posed a risk to others.
我定期看她，就在我办公室这里 I saw her regularly, here in my office,
也咨询了她以前的医生 and consulted with her previous doctor as well.
- 希伯特医生 - 嗯 -Dr. Siebert. -Hmm.
我跟她谈过 I've spoken to her.
你还在医院工作，几次倒班 You also do work at the hospital, a number of shifts.
有时是夜班 Sometimes nights.
而且你说你还在做制药顾问 And you said you're doing pharmaceutical consulting.
那是很大的工作负担 That's a pretty large workload.
我妻子失去了工作 My wife lost her job.
我们有个孩子，我的继子，在私立学校 And we have a boy, my stepson, in private school.
我还在市区新买了房子 I bought a new place downtown, too.
所以… So...
更长的工作时间，更大的病人量，更多的压力 longer hours, higher volume of patients, more stress.
还有别的吗？ Anything else?
我需要问你的合伙人几个问题 I'll need to ask your partners some questions.
当然 Of course.
他们不可能为这些事情而盯上你，对吧？ They can't come after you for any of this, right?
不，不会发生这种事 No, that's not going to happen.
他们没有责怪我 They don't blame me.
我只是一个专家证人 I'm just an expert witness.
就像我在另外那个乌干达孩子的案例中一样 Like I was on that case with the kid from Uganda
他偷东西停不下来 who couldn't stop stealing stuff.
他们只是需要我跟陪审团解释情况，就这样 They just need me to explain things to the jury. That's all.
所以审判之后，就结束了 So after the trial, it's over.
绝对的 Absolutely.
她难过，非常难过 She was sad. Very sad.
每一天 Every day.
她有没有说过为什么？ Did she say why?
没有，她就是这样 No. It is just how she was.
有些人滑倒 Some people slip.
有些人跳过去，我们密切注意着 Some jump. We keep an eye out.
我记得她，濒临边缘 I remember her. Right on the edge.
她让我担心 She worried me.
是什么让我们成为人类 What makes us human?
是什么让我们区别于…比如说，昆虫 What differentiates us from, let's say, insects,
是我们有知觉 is that we have consciousness.
意识到我们在想什么，做什么 An awareness of what we're thinking and what we're doing.
如果…举个例子，我饿了，我会自觉地意识到 If, for example, I'm hungry, l am consciously aware of that.
所以，我就会开冰箱，给自己做个三明治 And so, I go to the fridge and I make myself a sandwich.
所以你是有意图地去做一个三明治 So you intend to make a sandwich.
是的 Yes.
所以 So
你是在说，要有意图 what you are saying is that to have intent,
我们必须同时具有知觉 we must also have consciousness.
反对，大人 Objection, Your Honor.
这问题需要一个法律结论，而不是医学上的 The question calls for a legal conclusion, not a medical one.
驳回 Overruled.
你可以继续 You may continue.
知觉，提供了一种上下环境 Consciousness provides a context,
或者说意义，给我们的行动 or meaning, for our actions.
如果你的这一部分不存在，那么 If that part of you doesn't exist, then,
基本上，我们的机能运作就很像是一只昆虫 basically, we are functioning much like an insect,
你只是本能地反应 where you just respond instinctively
缺乏对你的行为的意义的想法 without a thought to what your actions mean.
而那个部分… And that part...
那个提供了行为意义的部分 That part that provides meaning to action,
在我们睡着时存不存在？ does that exist when we're asleep?
- 不 - 不 -No. -No.
所以，没有了知觉，我们如何证明意图呢？ So, without consciousness, how do we prove intent?
我相信你不可能做到 I don't believe you can.
我认为她会接受 I think she'll take it.
但她下周出不了医院，下个月也不行 But she does not walk out of the hospital next week, or next month.
她消失一阵子，这是协议的一部分 She goes away for a while. That's part of the deal.
她必须同意这一点 She'll have to agree to that.
你认为这样行得通？ You think that'll work?
我可以让班克斯医生来帮助给她解释 I can get Dr. Banks to help explain it to her.
我们准备接受的是： Here's what we're prepared to live with.
州政府同意NGRI State agrees to an NGRI.
我们达成了一个附带协议，她要被收容多久… We make a side agreement about how long she's institutionalized
才能举行释放她的听证会 before there's any sort of hearing on her release.
所以我无罪，但是我还是要离开？ So I'm not guilty, but I'm still going away?
NGRI的意思是“因精神错乱而无罪” NGRI means Not Guilty for Reasons of Insanity.
你没有谋杀罪 You're not guilty of murder.
你会被移送沃兹岛司法精神病中心 You'll be moved to the Wards Island Forensic Psychiatry Center
待一段时间 for a period of time.
但我不能离开那里 But I can't leave.
不行，一会儿也不行 No, not for a while.
你会受到监视观察 You'll be under observation.
我没疯，你知道我没疯 I'm not crazy. You know I'm not crazy.
依我的观点，你是环境和生理的受害者 In my opinion, you are a victim of circumstance and biology.
你的观点就不算数吗？ Isn't your opinion the one that counts?
不算，我只是个医生 No, I'm just one doctor.
让你给另一位精神病医生检查可能会有用 It may help to have you examined by another psychiatrist.
我们应该联系希伯特医生 We should get Dr. Siebert.
我说，她认识我更久得多，她可以为我作证 I mean she's known me for a lot longer, and she could testify.
希伯特医生的报告已经提交地方检察官 Dr. Siebert's records have already been submitted to the D.A.
而且谋杀发生时你不在她的照料中 And you weren't in her care at the time of the murder.
我是说 如果我只是环境和生理的受害者啊 But I mean, if I'm just a victim of circumstance and biology...
那是Ablixa的缘故，你告诉我我应该继续用Ablixa it was the Ablixa. You told me I should stay on the Ablixa.
要不是这样我绝无可能在这里 I would never be here if it weren't for that.
艾米莉，如果你接受这个抗辩，一旦精神病医生准许 Emily, if you take this plea, as soon as a psychiatrist says you're ready,
我们就会为你申请释放 we'll apply for your release.
要是我说不呢？ What if I say no?
那我们就继续下去 Then we keep going.
但是他们有一具尸体，凶器上有你的指纹 But they have a body, they have your prints on the murder weapon,
他们还在犯罪现场找到你 and they have you at the crime scene.
我们不能辩称你没有做那些事，所以 We can't argue that you didn't do any of that, so,
有一天会交给陪审团，他们也许宣告无罪 one day, it goes to the jury and maybe they acquit,
你独立走出这里 you walk out of here on your own.
也可能是另一种情况 Or maybe it goes the other way.
那么，你怎么想的？ Well, what do you think?
我来告诉你我所知道的 I will tell you what I know.
当前的NGRI辩护成功的只有1% An NGRI defense is only successful 1% of the time,
而他们今天就给了你 and they are giving you that today.
你他妈跟我开玩笑 You're fucking kidding me.
这里难道就没人有过坏结果吗？ Nobody here has ever had a bad result?
这里没人有过一个客户对副作用有过反应吗？ Nobody here has had a client react to a side effect?
你的自大真是叹为观止，你就没有责任？ Your arrogance here is breathtaking. You take no responsibility?
她身体对于一种药物的反应吗？ For her body's reaction to a medicine?
它刚刚上市销售而已 It only just came on the market!
她也在我的几次研讨会中被提起过 She has come up in a number of my sessions as well.
这成了这里环境的一部分 It's become a part of the environment here.
我有些客户害怕服用他们的药物 I have clients who are afraid to take their medications.
我们这里有州议会，都上了晚间新闻 We had the state board here. It's on the nightly news.
听着，我跟她律师以及地检官谈过，我们解决了问题 Look, I spoke with her lawyer and the D.A. We worked it out.
她接受NGRI She's taking an NGRI.
她要去住院观察，事情已经过去了 She's going to hospital for observation. It's behind us.
一切都会过去 It's all gonna go away.
胡扯，乔恩！这事会泼你一身脏水 Bullshit, Jon! It is splashed all over you!
它会到处跟着你，永远 It's going to follow you around forever.
还有我们，如果我们站在你一边的话 And us, too, if we're standing next to you.
这话什么意思？如果她无罪，我为何有罪？ What does that mean? If she's not guilty, why am I?
理性的人也许会那么看待 Rational people may look at it like that,
但我们看不到有太多理性的人 but we don't see a great many rational people here.
你明白我说的吗？ You can see what I'm saying?
我们本来问都不必问，你应该看看发生的情况 We shouldn't even have to ask. You should see what's happening.
可是对你来说好像很难 But that seems hard for you!
你认为我搞砸了吗？ Do you think I screwed up?
我不知道 I don't know.
我在候诊室留意过那个叫泰勒的女人 I noticed the Taylor woman in the waiting room.
她非常有吸引力 She was very attractive.
一只受伤的小鸟，林黛玉 A wounded bird. Fragile.
如果她是个男的你会不会对她有所不同？ Would you have treated her differently if she was a man?
吉恩 Gene.
事情不是那样 That's not what happened.
也许这时候你应该缓一缓 Maybe it's time for you to slow down.
你的客户少了，找个比较便宜的地方 Your client load is down. Get some cheaper space.
专注于你自己的事情 Focus on what's going on with you.
难以置信 Unbelievable.
我收到一封信，乔恩 I received a letter, Jon.
我还没有给任何人看过 I haven't shared it with anyone,
但我想它可能会浮出水面 but I think it will likely surface.
什么样的信？ What kind of letter?
是关于艾莉森·费恩的 It's about Alison Finn.
那是在我住院实习的时候 It was during my residency.
那所大学有一个免预约门诊 There was a walk-in clinic at the university.
我见过她大概有三次 I saw her maybe three times.
她也看那里别的医生 She saw other people there as well,
每隔一晚上就打自杀电话 called the suicide line every other night.
她是个妄想型精神分裂症 She was a paranoid schizophrenic
还滥用药物，病得很重的姑娘 and a drug addict. Very sick girl.
她知道你住在哪里 She knew where you lived.
她跟踪我 She stalked me.
信里说你带她去了伦敦 The letter says you took her to London.
从来没有 Never.
他们干嘛写这个？ Why are they writing this?
他们的女儿自杀身亡 Their daughter committed suicide
留下一张非常生动的纸条，点了我的名 and left a very graphic note, naming me.
从没发生过，听着 It never happened. Look.
病人和治疗者之间有感情转移并非不寻常 It's not unusual for there to be emotional transference between a patient and a therapist.
她有没有在你车里做口交？ Had her perform oral sex in your car?
从来没有！那是幻想！ Never! It was a fantasy!
沃兹岛司法精神病中心
抑郁症能带走你的精力 Depression can take away your energy.
它能偷走你的时间 It can steal away your time.
严重异态睡眠（梦游） 作者：维多利亚·希伯特
几年前 A number of years ago,
我有一个病人有外遇 I had a patient who was having an affair.
每周来这里就像是来忏悔一样 Came in here every week like he was going to confession.
哭喊，后悔，停不下来 Cried, repented. Didn't stop.
后来有一天，他进来说都结束了 Then one day, he comes in and says it's over.
他终于对自己的问题有了掌控，就像是神灵大显现 He's finally got a handle on his issues, like some great epiphany.
大概六到七个月之后 It was about six or seven months later
他的妻子出现了，说他在另一个州有另一个家庭 his wife turns up and says he has a whole other family in another state.
他一直在骗她 He'd been lying to her.
他也在骗我 And he was lying to me.
孩子们责怪我，那个妻子责怪我，就连那个病人也责怪我 The kids blamed me. The wife blamed me. Even the patient blamed me.
有时，我责怪我自己 At times, I blamed me.
问题在于，心脏学家能看到心脏病的到来 The point is the cardiologist can see it coming, the heart attack,
通过检测，就在血液里 from the tests. It's in the blood.
可是谁能看出谎言？ But who can see the lies?
或是过去，或是悲伤？ Or the past, or the sadness?
你没告诉我你写了这篇文章 You didn't tell me you wrote the article.
我们是在讨论一个病人，不是对比简历 We were consulting on a patient, not comparing résumés.
我要是提起这事就显得有些自我陶醉了，你不觉得吗？ It would have been a little self-involved for me to mention it, don't you think?
这不是在说我，而是在说艾米莉 It wasn't about me, it was about Emily.
你为什么没有告诉我梦游的事？ Why didn't you tell me about the sleepwalking?
我告诉你？ Me tell you?
她告诉过你那些情况 She told you about them.
而你让她继续服用Ablixa. And you kept her on the Ablixa.
那是你做的决定，乔恩 It was a decision you made, Jon.
你怎么知道的？ How did you know that?
知道什么？ Know what?
她有过不止一次发作，你怎么知道的？ That she had more than one episode. How would you know that?
她当你病人的时候是不是有过？ Did she have them when she was your patient?
我知道是因为新闻里有 I know because it's in the news.
我就是这样知道的 That's how I know.
人人都知道 Everyone knows.
人人都知道每一件事，乔恩 Everyone knows everything, Jon.
像这样？这个速度？ Like that? At that speed?
- 不，比这个快 - 哦，比这还快 -No, faster than that. -Oh, faster than that.
是的，她还系上了安全带 Yeah, and she was carrying the seat belt.
她系着安全带？你确定吗？ She was wearing the seat belt? Are you sure?
是的，我看见了 Yeah, I saw it!
前一刻，你还生活奢侈，下一刻… One moment, you're living high on the hog, and the next moment,
你就在探望狱中的丈夫，吃着拉面? you're visiting your hubby in jail, eating ramen?
谁会不抑郁呢？ Who wouldn't be depressed?
接着发生的… And then what happened...
噢，老天，真是个悲剧 Oh, God, it's just so tragic.
我也曾受过抑郁的折磨，所以我了解 I've suffered from my own depression, so I understand.
很抱歉听到这个 I'm sorry to hear that.
“每天下午，大概三点，就像是一场有毒的雾障 "Every afternoon, around 3:00, like a poisonous fog bank
在我脑海翻腾，而我瘫痪了” rolling in on my mind, and I'm paralyzed."
“一场有毒的雾障” "A poisonous fog"?
- 不是我说的，是威廉·斯泰隆， - 威廉·斯泰隆 -That's not me. It's William Styron. -William Styron.
- 对，《看得见的黑暗》 - 《看得见的黑暗》 -Yes. Darkness Visible. -Darkness Visible.
有几次我感觉简直就是我写出来的，但是… There are times when I feel I could have written it, but...
所以，她有没有一点好转？ So is she doing any better?
我在关注着她 I'm keeping an eye on her.
打扰了，你是朱莉娅吗？ Excuse me. Are you Julia?
朱莉娅？你是朱莉娅吗？ Julia? Are you Julia?
抱歉打扰，你是朱莉娅吗？不是 Sorry to disturb you. Are you Julia? No.
朱莉娅？你是朱莉娅吗？ Julia? Are you Julia?
- 不，我是简 - 朱莉娅 -No, I'm Joan. -Julia.
- 有没有一个…你是朱莉娅吗？ - 不，我是苏珊 -Is there a... Are you Julia? -No, I'm Susan.
还有别的事吗？ Is there something else?
我想跟她的朋友谈谈，朱莉娅 I wanted to speak to her friend, Julia.
朱莉娅？我想我们没有叫朱莉娅的在这里工作 Julia? I don't think we have a Julia that works here.
真的？ Really?
喂 Hey.
看这个 Look at this.
她早知道气囊和安全带的一切 She knew all about airbags and seat belts.
他妈的广告一直在她工作的大厅循环播放 Fucking commercial runs on a loop in the lobby where she works.
- 你去哪儿了？ - 怎么了？ -Where were you? -What?
你把我忘在学校了 You forgot me at school.
我在这里做这个 I was here. I was doing this.
- 我很抱歉 - 亲，去你房间 -I'm sorry. -Honey, go to your room.
开始做作业，我一会儿过去 Start your homework. I'll be there in a minute.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
这都是什么？Delatrex的东西？ What is all this? The Delatrex thing?
不是，你看，我去了她的办公室 No, look, I went to her office.
上班的没有一个叫朱莉娅的在服用Ablixa There is no Julia at work who takes Ablixa.
你在说什么？ What are you talking about?
她为什么编造朱莉娅？ Why did she make up Julia?
我不知道，她不是病了吗？ I don't know. Isn't she sick?
我以为病人有时候会编造事物 I thought sick people sometimes make things up.
那么你感觉好些了？ So you're feeling better.
是的，好多了，我做了好多 Yeah, much better. I've been doing a lot of, um,
跑步机锻炼，努力保持体形，激发5-羟色胺 running on the treadmill here to try and get in shape and stimulate serotonin.
你没有感觉像是在“毒雾”之中了？ You're not feeling like you're in a "poisonous fog"?
没有 No.
没有，再没有那么多了 No, not so much anymore.
这个短语真的让我纠结 That phrase really stuck with me.
你怎么想到的？ How did you come by it?
我不知道，真的… I don't know, really. Um...
我想它就是… I guess it's just...
我想那时候我就是那样的感觉 I guess that's how I felt back then.
你看，我也许是在哪里听到或看到过 You know, maybe I heard it or read it somewhere.
跟马丁在船上时，我们过去常常看到雾气翻滚 Back on the boat with Martin, we used to always see the fog rolling in.
我肯定以前有很多抑郁的人有过那种感觉 I'm sure a lot of depressed people have felt that way before.
重要的是我想那种雾气终于散掉了 The important thing is that I think the fog is finally lifting.
我真的认为我就要准备好很快离开这里了 And I really think I'm going to be ready to get out of here soon.
我得走了，抱歉，我在城里有个会 I have to go, I'm sorry. I have a meeting in the city.
你觉得可不可以，下次稍微待久一些？ Do you think maybe, uh, next time you could stay a little longer?
我只是没有别的访客 It's just I don't have any other visitors
我能盼望的真的只有这个 and this is really all I have to look forward to.
你的朋友朱莉娅？ What about your friend, Julia?
朱莉娅？ Julia?
是的，那家广告代理公司的 Yes. From the ad agency.
哦，朱莉娅，不，我跟朱莉娅在酒吧共事 Oh, Julia. No, I worked with Julia at the bar.
自从发生这些事以来我就没听到过她的消息 I haven't heard from her since everything happened.
我没听到过多数人的消息 I haven't heard from most people.
你没事吧？ Are you okay?
我知道你的生活发生翻天覆地的变化是什么样子 I know what it's like to have your entire life change out from under you.
唯一的不同在于，你没做错什么而马丁做错了 The only difference is, you didn't do anything wrong and Martin did.
所以，我打电话找你的原因是… So, the reason I called.
我是说，报纸上对泰勒案全部关注 I mean, with all the attention in the paper on the Taylor case,
还有伦理准则之类的 and with the ethics probe and such,
我想告诉你… I wanted to tell you that, um...
我们需要请你退出这项研究 We need to ask you to step off the study.
我确定这一切不合情理 I'm sure it's all blown out of proportion,
但是我们现在不能让你出现在工资单上 but we can't have you on the payroll now.
我可以匿名 I could be anonymous.
还做一样的工作 Still do the work.
我真的很抱歉 I'm real sorry.
我对此感觉糟糕 I feel horrible about this.
也许你可以参与别的研究，等这事结束以后 Maybe you can be part of another study when this is over.
那好吧 All right, then.
好玩的是萨德勒-贝内拉科斯扑了街 The funny thing is, with Sadler-Benelux in the toilet,
我们上涨了30% we're up like 30%.
什么？ What?
华尔街的人都在套现，因为Ablixa发生的事情 The guys down on Wall Street are cashing in because of what happened with Ablixa.
对我们来说极为有利 Worked out super well for us.
你可以押一支股票下跌 You can bet on a stock to go down,
就像你可以赌它上涨一样 just like you can bet on it to go up.
911前几天 A few days before 9/11,
有一波购买航空公司股票期权的大浪潮 there was a huge surge in the purchase of options of airline stock.
没人知道为什么，那是一个完全的谜 No one knows why. It's a complete mystery.
但撞击后美联航跌了40% But United fell 40% after the planes crashed
那些人赚了大钱 and people made a lot of money.
而且不是非法的 And it isn't illegal.
想象某件事将要发生并不是非法的 Thinking something's going to happen isn't illegal
犯法去让它发生就是另一回事了 Breaking the law to make it happen is a different story.
乔恩，我知道什么是内部交易，我以前在金融界工作 Jon, I know what insider trading is. I used to work in finance.
当然，你知道，可是你看 Sure, you do, but, look. See!
喂，看看萨德勒-贝内拉科斯遭遇了什么 Hey. See what happened at Sadler-Benelux
就在马丁·泰勒死后 right after Martin Taylor died.
下跌，一路下跌 Down. Way down.
阿兹利乐呢，相反的，上涨，一路上涨 AziLyle, on the other hand... up. Way up.
是她干的，她让它发生的，你看到了吗？ She did it. She made it happen, do you see?
你看到了吗？服用Ablixa是她的主意 Do you see? Ablixa was her idea!
但是你开的处方，是你做的 But you prescribed it. You did that.
我今天找到一份工作 I got a job today.
- 啊？ - 他们给我一份全职 -Huh? -They offered me full time.
我上午给你留言了 I left you a message this morning.
我没听见，我的手机关了，因为我在医院 I didn't hear. My phone was off 'cause I was at the hospital.
希望这份工资加上做顾问的钱，我们可以回到… Hopefully with this and the consulting money we can finally get back...
不，Delatrex的事情完了，没了 No, the Delatrex thing is over. It's gone.
他们解雇了我 They fired me.
什么？ What?
- 什么时候？ - 今天 -When? -Today
所以我必须把艾米莉这件事做好 That's why I have to make this thing with Emily work.
我不会让另一个艾莉森·费因发生 I'm not letting another Alison Finn happen,
所以我这次要他妈的斗争 so I'm fucking fighting this time!
我不要听什么艾米莉还是艾莉森 I don't want to hear about Emily or Alison.
可是这件事开始有眉目了 But this is starting to make sense now!
不，没有眉目 No, it's not making sense!
你坐在这里整天做这个就没有什么眉目 It doesn't make sense that you're sitting here doing this all day long!
这案子结束了 The case is over.
那些摄影师走了，你的合作伙伴没了 The photographers are gone, your partners are gone,
Delatrex的工作现在没了 the Delatrex thing is now gone.
你是唯一留在原地的人 You're the only one that's still here.
我只是想知道发生了什么 I just want to know what happened.
你治疗的一个女人杀了她丈夫 A woman you were treating killed her husband.
这就是发生的事情 That's what happened.
可我已经说了实话 But I already told the truth.
那正是这项测试将帮助证明的 That's what this test will help to prove.
怎么证明？ How does it do that?
它有助于展示你真实的心理状况 It helps to show your true state of mind.
阿米妥钠给了我们一扇了解某人心灵的窗户 Sodium amytal gives us a window into someone's psyche.
它降低了抑制 It lowers inhibitions.
我们给这次测试录像，然后给法官展示 We make a video of the test and we show it to the judge.
可你知道我对药物有什么感觉 It's just you know how I feel about drugs.
艾米莉，这是离开这里最快的方法 Emily, this is the fastest way out of here.
它会对我做什么？ What does it do to me?
刚开始你会觉得轻飘飘的 Initially, you'll feel light-headed.
然后你会有一种幸福感，平静 And then you will get a sense of well-being. Calm.
几分钟后，你可能会瞌睡，然后就睡着了 After a few minutes, you'll probably get drowsy and fall asleep.
这期间你做什么？ What do you do while that's happening?
我问问题 I ask questions.
你回答，你对发生的事有什么感觉就说什么 You answer. You say whatever you feel about what happened.
一开始你是出于什么动机来看我的？ What motivated you to come and see me in the first place?
我的动机就是克服我的抑郁 My motivation was to get over my depression
还有跟我丈夫过日子 and to have a life with my husband.
那么这个测试就会这样展现出来 Then that's what this will show.
我要是说了别的呢？ What if I say something else?
你什么意思？ What do you mean?
我只是说，要是我说了什么让我处境更糟的话呢？ I just mean, what if I say something that makes my situation worse?
你说了任何你不高兴的，我就销毁录像 You say anything you're not happy with, I'll destroy the video.
你多大了，艾米莉？ How old are you, Emily?
二十八 Twenty-eight.
我们在哪里？ Where are we?
沃兹岛司法精神病中心 Wards Island Psychiatric Forensic Center.
纽约的首府是哪里？ What is the capital of New York?
奥尔巴尼 Albany.
你知道你为什么在这里吗？ Do you know why you're here?
因为我丈夫死了 Because my husband is dead.
他怎么死的？ How did he die?
他们说我刺死了他，但我记不起来 They said I stabbed him, but I can't remember.
你想要他死吗？你有没有故意杀死马丁？ Did you want him dead? Did you kill Martin on purpose?
没有 No.
我想要我们乘船航行，我们三个 I wanted us to sail away together on the boat, all three of us.
你们三个？ The three of you?
玛德琳 Madeleine.
玛德琳怎么了？ What happened to Madeleine?
我因为悲伤而失去了她 I lost her because I was sad
她不想再待在悲伤之人的肚子里 and she didn't want to stay inside a sad person anymore.
他给了我那么多，然后他们带走了他 He gave me so much and then they took him away.
我想给他一个女儿 I wanted to give him a daughter.
可你杀了他 But you killed him.
你生他的气吗？你恨他吗？ Were you angry with him? Did you hate him?
不，我永远不会伤害他，我爱他的一切 No. I never would have hurt him. I loved everything about him.
他的气味 The way he smelled,
他的双手，他的一切，我都爱 his hands. Everything about him, I loved.
你是为了钱做的？ Did you do it for the money?
就像他那样？ Like he did?
艾米莉 Emily.
我爱他的一切 I loved everything about him.
艾米莉，你能听见我吗？ Emily, can you hear me?
我不记得 I can't remember.
她在陈述里就是这么说的，她不记得 That's what she said in her statement. She doesn't remember.
她在撒谎 She's lying.
她的入睡证明了什么？ What does her falling asleep prove?
你必须销毁这个，你在折磨这可怜的女人 You have to destroy this. You're torturing the poor woman.
是生理盐水 It's saline.
我给她注射了盐水 I gave her saltwater.
什么？ What?
没有药物 There was no drug.
那么，她为什么昏过去了？ So, why did she pass out?
注射了盐水你可不会有那种表演 You don't put in a performance like that on saltwater.
打电话给医院，安排血检 Call the hospital. Order a blood test.
你在她体内不会找到一点阿米妥 You won't find any amytal in her system.
这么长时间以来她都在说谎 She's been lying this whole time.
销毁它 Destroy that.
不，打电话给医院 No. Call the hospital.
- 安排血检 - 绝无可能 -Order a blood test. -Not a chance.
- 我们逮到她了，逮捕她 - 班克斯医生… -We have her. Arrest her. -Dr. Banks...
我要我的生活回来 I want my life back!
毁掉它，趁它还没毁掉你 Destroy it before it destroys you.
不 她早知道小车的安全设备 No. She knew the safety features of the car...
你不会想跟我或者任何人说起 You don't want to say that to me or to anyone.
- 还有一件事，萨德勒-贝内拉科斯下跌 - 别说了，班克斯医生 -Another thing. Sadler-Benelux is down. -Stop talking, Dr. Banks.
- 住口，太迟了 - 赚了几百万美元 - Stop! It's too late! -Millions of dollars were made!
不，你本来可以与我们合作的，我问过你 No! You could have worked with us! I asked.
判决书下来了 The verdict's in.
现在他妈都太迟了，不管你刚才给我们看了什么把戏 It's too fucking late for whatever that circus is that you just showed me.
你看，我们不可能从头来过 You see, we can't just start over.
我们这个国家有一罪不二审的法律 We have double jeopardy laws in this country.
查她的银行账户 Check her bank account.
我们查过，我们从来都查，什么也没有 We did. We always do. Nothing.
没有保险单，没有持股，没有马丁的遗产 No insurance policy, no stock holdings, no inheritance from Martin.
她没有抑郁 She's not depressed.
对，而且你没有发现，有人死了 Ya. And you didn't catch it and someone died.
而我没有发现，有人没有进监狱 And I didn't catch it and someone didn't go to jail.
我们失败了 We failed.
看，这就是你的小把戏证明的东西，要是说它证明了什么 See, that's what your little stunt proves. If it proves anything,
那就是证明我们被打败了 it proves we got beat.
还有你骗了一个女人 And that you lied to a woman
她对于你给她胳膊注射了什么并无罪责 who's not guilty about what you were putting in her arm.
好了，我不知道你是什么感觉 Now, I don't know how you feel about that,
但我宁愿这事限于你我之间 but I would rather it stay between you and me.
你从没来过 You were never here.
你就走出这里 Just come out there
去看她一次，求你了 and see her once. Please.
她没有抑郁，我… She wasn't depressed. I...
我实际上可以证明 I actually can prove it.
我现在干嘛要检查她？ Why would I examine her now?
你要见我就是为了这个？我靠，乔恩 Is that what you wanted to see me about? Shit, Jon!
我终于解决了它，我一个人，去看看她吧 I solved it finally, on my own. Just come see her.
你这是被困住了，乔恩 You're stuck in some old place, Jon.
我想你需要有个人把你拉出来 I think you need someone to help pull you out.
我可以给你推荐个好医生 I can refer someone good.
你还…你还在见她吗？ Are you still...Are you still seeing her?
我是顾问，我是她这个案子的专家 I'm consulting. I'm her expert on this case.
好吧，必须停下来！ Well, that has to stop!
你想让这事过去？你就去沃兹岛辞掉这个案子 You want to make it go away, you go out to Wards Island and resign from the case.
- 退出来 - 我不能这么做 -Step off. -I can't do that.
那这事就没法过去 Well, then it's not going to go away.
- 好吧，你不跟我一起去看她？ - 不去 -Okay, you won't come and see her with me? -No.
- 我能问你要些别的吗？ - 什么？ -Can I ask you something else? -What?
- 一些阿德拉 - 阿德拉 -Some Adderall. -Adderall
就一小段，20毫克 Just a short term, 20 milligrams.
这才是你打电话的原因，不是吗？ That's why you called, isn't it?
我集中精神很艰难，吉恩 I'm struggling to hold focus here, Gene.
它就是做这个的，帮助人们集中精神 That's what it's for, to help people focus.
你要集中在某件事情上 You want to focus on something,
集中于不要再见她 focus on never seeing her again.
迪，我一直在想你说的话 D, I've been thinking about what you said.
瞧，你是对的，是时候前行了 Look, you're right. It's time to move on.
我现在去沃兹岛 I'm heading over to Wards Island right now.
我不会再见她了 I'm not gonna see her again.
（维多利亚·希伯特医生）
你去见了艾米莉 You went to see Emily.
太他妈对了，我去了 Damn right, I did.
你本来可以先给我打电话 You could have called me first.
她给我打了电话 She called me.
她非常不安 She was very upset.
那可真是颇具戏剧性的噱头 It was kind of a dramatic stunt to pull on a woman
对付一个已经有极大感情创伤的女人 who's already in a great deal of emotional pain.
我不懂你在想什么 I don't understand your thinking.
我在试图确定她的精神状态 I'm trying to determine her state of mind
这样我就能规划最好的治疗方案 so I can chart the best course of treatment.
“治疗”？ "Treatment"?
你给一个无罪的女人注射阿米妥 You gave an amytal interview to a woman who's been declared not guilty.
我希望你有所收获 I hope you learned something.
哦，我有 Oh, I did.
实际上，相当多 Quite a lot, actually.
我认为她需要更多观察 I think she requires more observation.
而且她也需要更多药物治疗 And she'll need more medication as well.
我是布里奇街的希伯特医生 This is Dr. Siebert on Bridge Street.
（送：迪尔徳丽·班克斯）
我想送一份信件去曼哈顿 I'd like an envelope delivered to Manhattan.
嘿 Hey.
小家伙呢？ Where's the little guy?
操 Fuck!
我不会找警方告发 I'm not going to go to the police,
也不会去找任何人 or whomever one goes to in this situation.
我只想离开 I'm just going to go away.
什么？等等！嘿！等等！ What? Wait! Hey, wait!
等等？ Wait?
等这事再一次发生吗？ Wait for this to happen again?
又一个艾莉森或艾米莉？ Another Alison or Emily?
哦，哇，看到了吗？ Oh, wow. See?
好吧，这些证明了一切 Okay, these prove everything.
她拍的这些照片 She took these.
这是那个丈夫的朋友寄来的 These were sent by a friend of the husband's.
不，那不是真的 No, that's not true.
离我们远一点 Stay away from us.
等等！迪尔徳丽！ Wait! Dierdre!
迪尔徳丽，迪尔徳丽，等一下 Dierdre. Dierdre, wait a minute.
- 不行，乔 - 等等，亲爱的 -No, Jon. Wait a minute. -Hello, love.
你有两条未听留言 You have two unheard messages.
第一条未听留言 First unheard message.
班克斯医生吗？我是乔佛里·查尔兹 Yes, Dr. Banks? This is Jeffrey Childs
来自医疗行为评估办公室 from the Office of Medical Conduct Review.
有些艾莉森·费因的事情想问你，可否回电… I have some questions about Alison Finn. Can you call me at...
已删除 Deleted.
我是希伯特医生 This is Dr. Siebert.
我相信你已经收到我的最新消息了 I'm sure you've received my latest notes
有关艾米丽·泰勒案到目前为止的消息 concerning the Emily Taylor case by now.
我想你也会认同 There is, I think you'll agree,
有一种不同的疗程可以实施 a different course of treatment to pursue
是为每个人的最大利益着想 that is in everyone's best interest.
我们也许能见面喝个咖啡？谢谢 Maybe we can meet for a coffee? Thanks.
已保存，新留言结束 Saved. End of new messages.
查看已删除的留言，按1-9 Check erased messages. Press 1-9.
这件事你会被全国报道 You could get national coverage on this.
“精神病医生搞病人 "Shrinks fucking patients
“还操纵她们杀死配偶” and manipulating them into killing their spouses."
大猛料 Hot stuff.
我本想说这会毁了你的事业 I would say this would ruin your practice.
可是慢着 But wait.
你已经没有什么事业了 You don't have a practice anymore
也没有老婆，没有孩子了，我打赌 or a wife or a kid, I'm betting.
所以你还有什么可输的？ So what else can you lose?
玛莎肯定能在一场过失致死请愿中用上这些 Martha can certainly use those in a wrongful death suit.
州里吊销你的执照了吗？ State revoke your license, yet?
我总是告诉我的病人 I always tell my patients,
“你知道对未来行为最好的预测器是什么吗？” "You know what the best predictor of future behavior is?"
“是过去的行为” "Past behavior."
好吧，你以后不会有病人了 Well, you don't have any more patients.
有一个疯子伙伴的唯一问题 The only problem with having a crazy person for a partner
就是他们倾向于保持疯癫 "is they tend to stay crazy.
你应该知道治愈一个有恋父情结的漂亮女孩有多难 You should know how difficult it is to cure a pretty girl with daddy issues.
想得美，乔，我不会上当 Nice try, Jon. I'm not buying it.
现在就花了那些他妈的钱 Spend the fucking money now.
因为他们就要来收回了 Because they're coming to take it back.
你在说什么？ What are you talking about?
你可以去问她 You could go and ask her.
只不过她要我阻止你见她 Only she asked me to keep you from seeing her.
她把一切都告诉我了 She told me everything.
一切？不，我来告诉你什么是一切 Everything? No, I'll tell you everything.
如果你没什么可输的也就不会在这里了 You wouldn't be here if you had nothing to lose.
她已经得到“无罪”判决书，而你，从另一方面… She already got a "not guilty" verdict. You, on the other hand...
我操！你马上把她从那儿弄出来，听见了吗？ Fuck you! You get her out of there right now, you hear me?
你只要照做，你就不会再听到我俩的消息了 You do that and you won't hear from either one of us again.
对，你还能回去跟富有的白人聊他们的问题 Yeah, you can go back to chatting with rich white people about their problems.
她已经痊愈了，此时此刻，乔恩 She's cured, as of right now, Jon.
你他妈的是个天才 You're a fucking genius!
她近来很容易激动 She's been very agitated lately.
我想我们最好限定她的访客 I think it best we restrict her visitors.
也不能通电话，除非先通知我 And no phone calls, either, without notifying me first.
她也一直在拒绝服药 She's been resisting her medication as well.
对工作人员非常抗拒 Very confrontational with the staff.
她看起来越来越糟了 She seems to be getting worse.
嗯，我就担心这样 Mmm. I was afraid of that.
那是个口腔护具 That's a mouth guard.
防止她咬碎牙齿，咬到舌头 It stops her smashing her teeth, biting her tongue off.
当前要持续大概五秒钟 The current lasts for about five seconds.
他们会执行麻醉注射 They'll have administered a paralytic agent,
但他们在脚踝上捆了止血带，你看见了吧？ but they put a tourniquet on the ankle, you see?
为防止她发生惊厥 To make sure she is having a seizure.
注意看那只脚 Keep your eye on that foot.
它其实展现出相当的有效 It's actually been shown to be remarkably effective
来治疗重度抑郁症 for treating severe depression.
没有你吃药引起的任何一种副作用 None of the side effects you get with pills.
不知道拿它对付正常人会怎样 No idea what it might do to a normal person.
我还想给你做另一个测试 I also wanted to give you another test.
一次人格调查，只是一系列是非题 A personality inventory. Just a series of true-or-false questions.
第一条保存的语音信息 First saved voice message.
我是希伯特医生 This is Dr. Siebert.
我相信你已经收到我的最新消息了 I'm sure you've received my latest notes
有关艾米丽·泰勒案到目前为止的消息 concerning the Emily Taylor case by now.
不是特别精妙的工具 Not a very subtle tool,
不过结果会让委员会感兴趣 but the results will be of interest to the board.
有一种不同的疗程可以实施 ...a different course of treatment to pursue
是为每个人的最大利益着想 that is in everyone's best interest.
他们喜欢看硬数据 They like hard data to look at.
等等，她在说什么？ Wait. What is she saying?
谁？ Who?
我觉得你不应该再当我的医生了 I don't think you should be my doctor anymore.
我认为你应该辞掉我的案子 I think you should resign my case.
维多利亚付我的钱太多，我不能辞 Victoria's paying me way too much for that.
从你的那一份里出的，我想 Out of your share, I assume.
电疗是她的主意，会损伤记忆 The shock treatment was her idea. It damages the memory.
你看 Look.
你开始遗忘符合我们的最大利益 It's in our best interest that you start forgetting.
你准备好治疗了吗，泰勒太太？ Are you ready for your treatment, Ms. Taylor?
哦，不，我安排的是明天 Oh, no, I scheduled it for tomorrow.
我需要用电话 I need to use the phone.
你可以下一个打 You can be next.
我要现在打给我的律师 I need to call my lawyer now.
你会打很久吗？ Are you going to be long?
你会打很久吗？我需要用电话 You going to be long? I need to use the phone.
你会打很久吗？有没有时间限制？ Are you going to be long? Isn't there a time limit?
我需要打电话找人，我的精神医生在搞我 I need to call someone. My shrink is fucking with me.
你现在可以走人了吗？ Can you get off now?
抱歉，泰勒太太，你被限制了 I'm sorry, Mrs. Taylor. You've been restricted.
被谁限制？班克斯医生？ By who? By Dr. Banks?
他不再是我的医生了，他攻击我，他有病 He's not my doctor anymore. He attacked me. He's sick.
泰勒小姐，你要退后 Miss Taylor, you need to step back.
放下电话，放下电话 Get off the phone. Get off the phone!
泰勒小姐，你需要放松下来 Miss Taylor, you need to relax.
泰勒小姐 Miss Taylor
给我找希伯特医生！这是胡扯！ Get me Dr. Siebert! This is bullshit!
我都不该在这里，我没病！给我找希伯特医生！不！不！ I shouldn't even be here! I'm not sick! Get me Dr. Siebert! No! No!
- 放松，放松 - 不！不！ -Relax! Relax! -No! No!
不，我不要！我不要！ No, I don't want it! I don't want it!
喂，希伯特医生？ Yes. Dr. Siebert?
班克斯医生 Dr. Banks.
我一直在考虑我们上次的谈话 I've been thinking about our last conversation.
是的 Yes.
有个主意忽然冒了出来 An idea occurred to me.
嗯哼 Mmm-hmm.
也许我真是个天才 Maybe I am a genius.
你好，最好我们别进去谈，对吗？ Hello there! Best we don't talk inside, right?
谈什么？ Talk about what?
呃，她这周要去法官面前 Uh, she wants to go before the judge this week.
她打算说什么？ And what is she going to say?
嗯，这得看情况了 Well, it depends.
她可以说一个很长的肮脏故事，关于她的前精神医生 She could tell a long, sordid story about her former shrink.
建议证监会调查，整个事件 Suggest the SEC investigate. The whole story.
那会造成全国轰动，不是吗？ That would make national coverage, wouldn't it?
- 而你会从中获得什么？ - 哦，我不知道 -And what do you get out of it? -Oh, I don't know.
心灵的平静，就像我说过的，这得看情况 Peace of mind. Like I said, it depends.
不 No.
不，不 No, no.
这是我们最后一次谈话，好吗？ This will be the last time we speak. Okay?
你让她放出来，我们做回陌生人 You get her released, and we go back to being strangers.
当然了，除非你还想为其他病人咨询 Unless, of course, you want to consult on other patients.
不 No.
（人格调查表）
工作人员告诉我说你最近过得不好 The staff told me you were having a difficult time.
所以我加了些有帮助的药 So, I've added medication that will help.
如果我跟你说实话，我还得吃药吗？ If I tell you the truth, do I have to take the pills?
如果我再吃药，就没法说实话了 I won't be able to tell the truth if I take any more pills.
想象一下，你想要的一切… Imagine everything you ever wanted
有一天都出现了，并自称为你的生活 shows up one day and calls itself your life.
接着，就在你开始相信它的时候… And then, just when you start to believe in it...
不见了，突然间，你就… Gone. And suddenly, it gets
很难去想象未来 very hard to imagine a future.
这就是抑郁，对吧？ That's depression, right?
所以我去看希伯特医生 So I went to see Dr. Siebert.
我们谈了我的童年 We talked about my childhood.
谈了失望还有妈妈和爸爸 About disappointment and Mommy and Daddy.
我还跟她讲了马丁的事 And I told her about Martin.
她告诉我 她跟她丈夫的婚姻 And she told me that her marriage with her husband
除了心灵契合之外别无他物 had never been anything but a meeting of minds.
而心灵一段时间后就开始游移 And minds start to wander after a while.
他为一个年轻模特而欺骗了她，所以她… He had traded her in for a younger model, so she was
孤单而又寂寞，这没花多长时间 alone and lonely. It didn't take much.
我想她一直喜欢女孩 I think she always liked girls,
她只是从未找到过像我这样让她喜欢的女孩 she just never found one she liked as much as me.
她教我怎么变得抑郁 She taught me how to be depressed.
哪种药物有什么副作用 What drugs had which side effects.
什么症状伴随着什么诊断 What symptoms went with what diagnosis.
而我教她马丁跟我讲过的有关金融衍生品交易的一切 And I taught her everything Martin ever told me about derivatives and deals.
那些交易都是以她的名义，所以我原谅了马丁 The trades were in her name. So I forgave Martin.
我周末去探望他 I went to visit on the weekends
告诉他我会等着他 and told him that I would wait for him.
你们医生把伪装叫什么？ What do you doctors call faking?
“佯病” "Malingering"?
多可笑的词 Such a funny word.
女孩们在很小年纪就学会伪装 Girls learn to fake things at a very early age.
可能大约在同时男孩们学会撒谎 Probably around the same time that boys are learning to lie.
我们需要大家都看见 我多么想让我们的事情变好 We needed everyone to see how much I wanted it to work out with us.
我有多爱我的丈夫 How much I loved my husband.
还有我多么严重地抑郁 And how terribly depressed I was.
你什么时候决心杀他？ When did you decide to kill him?
那种决心你不会只下一次 It's not a decision you make just once.
你会一次又一次下决心 You make it over and over again,
每一次你看着自己的人生 every time you look at your life
你看到自己的位置，以及谁把你带到这里 and you see the position you're in and who put you there.
归根结底就是他 And it all leads back to him.
他妈的每一个问题，每一次失望 Each and every fucking problem, every disappointment.
你就自己想 And you think to yourself,
“也许要是他没了，一切都会变好” "Maybe if he just goes away, it'll all get better."
（毕汉警官）
一切本来都会完美进行 Everything would have worked out perfectly
只要你在审判后就消失 if you had just disappeared after the trial
就像你本该做的那样 like you were supposed to.
为什么找我？ Why me?
是因为艾莉森·费因吗？ Was it because of Alison Finn?
那只是一个让人高兴的巧合 That was just a happy coincidence.
一次方便的消遣 A convenient distraction.
并不一定得是你 It didn't have to be you.
本来可以是你或者别的任何人 It could have been you or anyone else
只要他当时拿着处方板走进我的诊室 who walked into my room with a prescription pad.
我们没有去特意找你，我们只是四处看了看 We didn't go looking for you, we just looked at the world.
我在哪儿读到过 I read somewhere
喜悦的眼泪和狂怒的眼泪不一样 that there's a difference between tears of joy and tears of rage.
是真的吗？ Is that true?
化学上不一样，但你是看不出来的 It's in the chemistry, but you can't tell by looking
看起来都只是眼泪 they all just look like tears.
哈喽？你好，我觉得我需要帮助，我觉得我的… Hello? Hello, I think I need help! I think my...
我丈夫在流血，我想他…我想他被刺了 My husband's bleeding and I think he's... I think he's been stabbed
而且他死了，他死了，我想他是死了 and he's dead. He's dead, I think he's dead.
我想他死了，你需要派人来 I think he's dead! You need to send someone!
拜托 Please!
你从未真的服用过帕罗西汀，对不对？ You never did take the Paxil, did you?
没有 No.
也没用左洛复 Or the Zoloft.
没有 No.
只有Ablixa Only the Ablixa.
对我没什么作用 Didn't really do anything for me.
那么，她什么时候开始付给你钱的？ So, when did she start paying you?
她一直知道你有一天会转而对付她 She always knew you'd turn on her someday
就像你对马丁一样 like you did with Martin.
过去的行为是对将来行为最好的预测器 Past behavior is the best predictor of future behavior.
她就是这样说你的 That's what she said about you.
你俩打算把我关在这里多久？ And how long do you two plan on keeping me here?
我们干嘛要让你离开？ Why would we ever let you leave?
因为 Because
也许会有更好的协议 maybe there's a better deal.
在她被监禁的过程中，我得出结论 Over the course of her confinement, I've come to the conclusion
基于合理程度的医学确定性 with a reasonable degree of medical certainty
艾米莉·泰勒既无精神病也无危险 that Emily Taylor is neither mentally ill or dangerous
这个时候，我相信假以适当的治疗 at this time. I believe with the proper treatment
她不会构成对她自己或他人的威胁 she is not a threat to herself or others.
依我的观点，她已经准备好进入… In my opinion, she's ready to move onto
持续监督下的下一个康复阶段 the next phase of rehabilitation with ongoing supervision
如前所述，以门诊命令为条件 as outlined in the outpatient order of conditions.
复发回到危险的精神状态的风险很低 The risk of relapse back into a dangerous mental state is low.
我已经向法庭提交了条件，在此前提下我相信 I've submitted to the court the conditions under which I believe
监视命令可以取消 the order of confinement may be rescinded.
而你，泰勒女士，是否明白 And do you, Ms. Taylor, understand
如果你违反释放条例 that if you violate the terms of your release,
我将不得不发布一项新的监视命令 I will have to issue a new order of confinement?
明白，大人 Yes, Your Honor.
我每天大概给她发20条短信 I text her like 20 times a day.
扎克，你开始看见一种模式了，对吗？ Zach, you're beginning to see a pattern, right?
人人都离去了，这不是模式，这是事实 Everyone leaves. It's not a pattern, it's a fact.
这跟你被收养有怎样的联系？ And how does this connect to you being adopted?
我认为就是从那时开始的 I think it started there.
而现在我在促使它发生 And now I'm making it happen.
你看，我害怕人们会离去，然后… You know, I get scared that people will leave and then
我，最后会迫使他们离去 I, uh, end up making them leave.
抱歉，希伯特医生，我想有人找你 Excuse me, Dr. Siebert, I think someone wants you.
呃，抱歉，扎克，这是急事 Uh, I'm sorry, Zach, this is an emergency.
我们只好下次再说了 We're gonna have to pick this up next time.
你什么也没有告诉班克斯，是吧？ You didn't tell Banks anything, did you?
当然没有 Of course not.
你付给他多少才让我出来的？ How much did you have to pay him to get me out?
这无所谓，你出来了，都料理了 It doesn't matter. You're out. It's taken care of.
你没给我留下太多选择 You didn't leave me much choice.
其它的钱你怎么处理了？ What did you do with the rest of the money?
两个账户 Two accounts.
我的在迪拜，你的在大开曼群岛 Mine's in Dubai, yours is in Grand Cayman.
老天 God.
你确定你别的什么也没告诉他？ Are you sure you didn't tell him anything else?
是的，我确定 Yes, I'm sure.
因为有违反证监会规定，密谋谋杀 Because there are SEC violations. Conspiracy to commit murder.
我暴露了 I'm exposed here.
对，你暴露了 Yes, you are.
我还很脆弱 And I'm vulnerable.
哦，天，我想念你 Oh, God, I missed you.
你教我做一个如此悲伤的女孩 You taught me to be such a sad, sad girl.
我现在样子悲伤吗？ Do I look sad now?
你记得第一次吗？ Do you remember the first time?
记得 Yeah.
你记得我让你湿成什么样了吗？ Do you remember how wet I made you?
哦，记得 Oh, yeah.
你想再做一次吗？ Do you want to do that again?
是的 Yeah.
那他妈是什么东西？ What the fuck is that?
你没给我留下多少选择 You didn't leave me much choice.
哦，我的天 Oh, my God.
希伯特医生，你被捕了 Dr. Siebert, you're under arrest.
你被控策划谋杀以及证券欺诈 You're being charged with conspiracy to commit murder and securities fraud.
（专业套房 乔纳森·班克斯 医学博士）
…接下来十分钟之内，我想她刚刚到 ...within the next 10 minutes. I think she's just arrived.
是的，她在这里 Yeah, she's here.
还有，谢谢你 And thank you.
我来了，终于痊愈了 Here I am. Cured at last.
你迟到了 You're late.
我得待多久？ How long do I have to stay?
我要给你开些药 I'm going to put you on some medication.
什么？ What?
这个是氯丙嗪 This is for Thorazine.
是一种镇定剂，用了多年了 It's a tranquilizer, been around for years.
你知道那些走路晃晃悠悠的人 You know the people shuffling around
就像在监狱病房里眼神空洞的僵尸 like zombies with vacant eyes in the prison ward?
他们就是服用了氯丙嗪 They were on Thorazine.
这是丙戊酸钠 So this is for Depakote.
能平复你的情绪，不过 It'll settle your mood, but...
伴随脱发 hair loss
那是一种副作用 is a side effect.
这是什么？ What is this?
作为我们安排的一部分，我将会送你… As part of our arrangement, I'll also be sending you
去格拉梅西做尿检 to the Gramercy for urine tests
以确保你服用了药物 to make certain you take your meds.
我明天再见你，好吗？尽量别迟到 And I'm seeing you again tomorrow, all right? Try not to be late.
愤怒的人频繁迟到 Angry people are frequently late.
这是胡扯 This is bullshit!
你听起来很愤怒，你读过法庭命令吗？ You sound angry. Have you read the court order?
你必须服从你的释放条款 You have to obey the terms of your release.
是的，我来了 Yeah, I'm here.
那些条款授权，如果我相信你在任何方面构成危险 Those terms mandate that if I believe you are a danger in any way
我需要立即将你送回医院 I need to send you back to hospital immediately.
如果我没有，我就是违反法律 If I don't, I'm in violation of the law.
我为你抓到了希伯特，我是合作证人 I got Siebert for you. I'm a cooperating witness.
- “非常固执…” - 说好了我作证检举她 -"Very noncompliant..." -The deal was I testify against her
- 我就能出来 - “有暴力史” -and I get out. -"...With a history of violence."
- 这不是出来，这是被搞了 - “危险” -This isn't out, this is fucked! -"Dangerous."
我认为这需要新的诊断 I think this needs a new diagnosis.
凭什么？我做了什么？ Based on what? What did I do?
对这个问题 To the question,
“我们周围有只有我能看见的东西和生物” "There are objects and creatures all around us only I can see,"
你回答说 “对” you answered, "True."
- 那是你填写的 - 分裂情感障碍 -You filled that out! -Schizoaffective disorder.
我想我需要送你回去 I think I need to send you back.
泰勒太太 Mrs. Taylor!
艾米莉·泰勒 Emily Taylor!
泰勒小姐，站住 Miss Taylor, stop!
中心，发生330-20情况 Central, we have a 330-20.
不，他说谎，他在说谎 No, he's lying! He's lying!
我没病！我没病！我保证我没病！ I'm not sick, I'm not sick! I promise I'm not sick!
他才有病！他只是想要钱！ He's the sick one! He just wants the money!
不，我没病！我保证！ No, I'm not sick, I promise!
别带我回去，我不想回去！ Don't bring me back, I don't want to go back!
我不想回去！我不想回去！ I don't want to go back! I don't want to go back!
（圣卢克斯学校）
你今天怎么样，艾米莉？ How are you doing today, Emily?
好一些 Better.
好多了 Much better.